Feelings

So a blog is supposed to be a place to express your feelings...well that's great..until you can't put your feelings into words. That's where I'm at right now. sorry for being boring!

Nothing

I have nothing to say about todays events.

Last night was amazing first off! BSHS Symphonic Band recieved a Superior rating at SCBDA Concert Festival...Today is supposed to be the first meeting of the bible study i started. I can't wait to see the things God is going to do in our group. I think this group could really explode into something in the coming months. I'm so excited!
Last night after returning home from the school i was saddened to hear of the death of a Dorman High School Student. Its so hard to describe how to cope with something like this. At Boiling Springs we have had 4 deaths in my class since 6th grade. The latest one a tragic car accident in early March of 2011... Ou don't know what to think because your body is in shock. Whether you know the kid or not it still hits home somehow. I can't imagine what this family is going through. But i just want to send my thoughts and prayers out to them!

Lunch Room Conversations

so...today we sat at our normal seats in the lunch room. 2nd row form the stage and 3rd table from the wall. Everything was going great..and then an unknown face sat at our face. We sat in silence for about 3-5 minutes..know one was talking to anyone. It was really awkward. So i finally asked the guy a few question..just to get to know him a little better. I was so nervous but i knew it was the right thing to do..our conversations then went back to normal..we started constantly laughing and just felt really cool to have only known someone for like 10 minutes and to make him feel right at home. Or at least i think we made him feel right at home. We may have creeped him out a little bit..we'll see if he returns tomorrow.

one month and counting...

it's been one month already since my Grandpa passed away. Time has really flown by. Not a day passes that i am not reminded of him in some way. It is definitely one of the hardest things i have ever faced. Just talking about how great of a Grandpa, Father, and Husband he was gets my emotions all worked up. Thats just breaking the surface..he was a mighty man of God. He spent many hours a day in his basement seeking Gods face. On Febuary 18 he was given a great reward. He finally got to go meet his father. I can only hope to be half the man he was one day...I love you Papaw!!

to care or to not care...

Over the past weekend..i was faced with a lot of difficult decisions mainly with close friendships. My identity was revealed in a not so proffesional manner. I wish I could take it all back and things go back to being normal. To bad life doesn't work that way. Now I have to face my worst nightmare...I lost my best girl friend that I had. We both leaned on eachother when facing everyday obsatacles and it was nice to just vent whenever needed.... Can I mend this relationship? only time will tell. So i have to ask myself whether of not i should still care..or just move on. Not the easiest decision to make when you have poured out everthing to that person. Advice is welcome.

In the past month a lot has gone on in my life. Anywhere from sickness to a death in the family. You could say I have been through it all. But through all of it, I have come out as a much stronger person and also learned that with God nothing is unconquerable. 

On the positive side, I have decided to start a bible study with some of my closest friends. I am privileged to have my two best guy and girl friends in the group. All of us have been through a lot the last few months and we could really use the support of each other. I ask that you please pray for wisdom in the days ahead for our group. It will not be easy, but I know that it will definitely be worth it!!